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Future.

I really don't know what the future holds.
I want/need to find a job.
I feel stuck.
and I am not a fan of being stuck.
Life is passing me by, and I don't know how to stop it.

XOXO

Ellen, Trenta, Starbucks, So funny!

So, right now

I want to cry.
And not just because my head feels like it's going to pop out,
and not just because I saw a stupid twitter post,
and not just because my birthday is coming up and I feel like it might suck.
and not just because no one would take my shift on may 9th when I've taken everyone else's shift multiple times,
and not just because I have a friend who's birthdays coming up and I feel like if I don't drink, they won't want me there.
and not just because I feel like my life is going nowhere.
but because all of these things are happening at once.
ARG!

two steps forward, one step back.

I've put off writing about sno camp because I am not sure what to say.
It wasn't like passed sno camps. I feel as though I was so scared that I would have this great big change in my heart and then go back to 'real life' and it would all go away. I feel as though I was holding my self back. And yet, I feel as though something has changed. I want to read my bible more, listen to 'christian' music more than secular, etc.
I also found out that my youth group isn't going to pitch this year. Part of me is really upset because, I don't know if I get the same thing out of the speakers at pitch at I do with my own youth leaders. We'll see how it goes.
XOXO

Why?

Why is it that I can can easily spend 40 bucks on books from chapters that I can also easily get from the library, and yet, feel like spending 25 bucks on a devotional, is way too much, when that book could help me get closer to God?
This weekend I am going away on a youth retreat to Sno Camp. Part of me is excited but another part, a bigger part, is feeling like it will be the same as any other retreat. Right before we leave, there is an excitement in the air, and it continues on for most of the weekend, but then by the end of Sunday, I don't remember much of what was said, and going about my daily routine seems like the thing to do. Right now, I feel as though I only have my church friends left. Everyone from high school, I haven't talked to on msn since the end of last year. Some of them, I haven't even seen face to face since we got together at the end of the summer. I know that in the long run, this may be the best thing for me. Right now, I don't know what to think. I want this weekend to help me become closer to God, and yet not make me feel as though, returning to reality is such a bad thing.
Hopefully things get better. I don't know why, but I feel as though they will.
XOXO

Week 2

Doing my second week of college classes.
It's fun so far.
Fun quotation from Chef.
Chef:You know why it's called a G-string?
Because, 'Geez, put some more clothes on'!
haha
I wish I could remember everything he says.
I could write a book, and make millions.

XOXO

Back at College

So, this week was my first we back at college.
It feels good to get out of the house.
For both my classes, I have different teachers than the ones that I had last time.
I believe that this will help me actually be able to pass.
One of my teachers, I'll call him Chef, said something very funny today.

Chef: how's it going?
Christianne: Pretty good, would be better if my ankle didn't hurt.
Chef: oh?
Christianne: I twisted it on monday.
Chef: Well then, stop chasing after all the boys. Didn't I tell you that last year?
Christianne: *blank stare*
Chef: You know that I am kidding
Christianne: yep. ha ha.

Also, you have to read the Chef parts with a french accent. much funnier that way.

Also, I put 30 dollars on my Starbucks card.
I'm hoping that will last at least until the start of spring, march 20th.
Not even two months.
This maybe bad.
Maybe I should give up starbucks for lent.
At least I have until feb 17 to decide.

Wow, that's a long post.
Hopefully it won't be this long until my next post.

XOXO

Been A While

There are times when I spend 40 minutes to an hour reading other peoples' blogs. And yet, I forget about my own. I want to do this more often, but it seems like my life is too boring to have a blog. My mom doesn't even have it bookmarked anymore. Maybe I'll come back in the new year, or before if anything interesting happens.

XOXO

Commencement

Commencement is happening this Friday.
I will be a graduate of Forest Heights.
This is, in a sense, the end of my high school.
In another sense, I was done high school last February.
Weird. I'm not really looking forward to seeing anyone.
Actually, that isn't weird at all. I just want to be able to say a final farewell.
See y'all if we ever have a reunion.

2 Weeks In...

I have had now two of each of my classes.
Well, one and a half for one of them.
Yesterday, I threw up during my class.
I was aloud to go home.
I am thinking this is not a very good start to the year.
Hopefully next week goes better.
XOXO

Facebook 'Friends'

Today, I deleted many of my facebook 'friends'.
Most of them were people in high school that either I added or they added me just so they could have high numbers.
I am starting to learn who my real friends are.
the ones that are willing to listen to me whining about something or other and then telling me it will all work out.
The ones who will talk to me at 1 in the morning on msn just because.
The ones that will, even when they don't have any money, go to the mall with me just to hang out and eat chinese food.
Those people who I deleted today probably won't even notice that I have deleted them.
For a while I debated who I would delete.
But I figure if they really wanted to message me, they could do it that way.
Sure I have less than 140 friends now.
And many of them are pages that I have 'liked',
But I know that these people are going to be the ones that I want to talk to in years to come.
There may even be a time when I no longer want to talk to them, and then I will probably delete them then too.
Or even start a new facebook.
I don't who even reads this blog anymore,
My mom i think has deleted it from her list of favourites.
I will try to write more.
I feel good doing it.
And what's better than doing something that makes you feel good?

XOXO

Scared

I will admit,
I am a little scared going back to college.
What I am most worried about is the finding a job part.
I'm almost too scared to call.
I know I must, however,
I don't think I can do it.
XOXO

Oh Joe

When I saw these pictures, I will admit, I giggled like a school girl.
This is not helping me to grow up and leave childhood things behind.
But before that can happen, I need closure.
Anyone up to a JoBros concert?

Bing a while!

No, I did not misspell been.
I just finished off a pretty good hand full of cherries.
my fingers are red, as are my pants that I have rubbed the aforementioned fingers on.
And the only other time when my lips were this red were when I put this my mom's red lipstick on.

Anyhoodle.

It has been I while.
I haven't been up to much.
Just hanging at home.
Wondering if I want to be excited for September or not.
Paint my nails.
That reminds me, I want to fine a new colour.
What, I am not sure.
maybe a green.
or orange.
or cherry red.
who knows?

Summer Time

This should be a good summer.
I might be going to a cottage.
And visit a friend in TO.
Hopefully.
And I have work at TH.
Hopefully,
I don't have to do anything with the college.
I know I should call them
However, I do not want to.
Go procrastination!

Slowing down...

I feel as though I now have time to slow down.
and breathe.
I only have one more exam to take.
I have to cook.
I hope that we get the recipes because I don't know where mine are.
Hopefully all goes well,
and I'll be able to post more.
XOXO

Priorities

I've been thinking lately.
About priorities.
How I should be doing one thing.
And I am doing something else.
I am going to be graduating high school soon.
And I'm already in college.
STRESS!
xoxo

Been A While

I'm still here.
I'll be posting more when life slows down.
HAHA!
xoxo

Red Cabbage

Note to self:
Use gloves.
please.
Thanks.
XOXO