Sunday, June 6, 2010

Moving to Tumblr!

It just seems easier.
come find me!

Monday, May 31, 2010


I really don't know what the future holds.
I want/need to find a job.
I feel stuck.
and I am not a fan of being stuck.
Life is passing me by, and I don't know how to stop it.


Saturday, May 8, 2010

Ellen, Trenta, Starbucks, So funny!

Sunday, May 2, 2010

So, right now

I want to cry.
And not just because my head feels like it's going to pop out,
and not just because I saw a stupid twitter post,
and not just because my birthday is coming up and I feel like it might suck.
and not just because no one would take my shift on may 9th when I've taken everyone else's shift multiple times,
and not just because I have a friend who's birthdays coming up and I feel like if I don't drink, they won't want me there.
and not just because I feel like my life is going nowhere.
but because all of these things are happening at once.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

two steps forward, one step back.

I've put off writing about sno camp because I am not sure what to say.
It wasn't like passed sno camps. I feel as though I was so scared that I would have this great big change in my heart and then go back to 'real life' and it would all go away. I feel as though I was holding my self back. And yet, I feel as though something has changed. I want to read my bible more, listen to 'christian' music more than secular, etc.
I also found out that my youth group isn't going to pitch this year. Part of me is really upset because, I don't know if I get the same thing out of the speakers at pitch at I do with my own youth leaders. We'll see how it goes.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


Why is it that I can can easily spend 40 bucks on books from chapters that I can also easily get from the library, and yet, feel like spending 25 bucks on a devotional, is way too much, when that book could help me get closer to God?
This weekend I am going away on a youth retreat to Sno Camp. Part of me is excited but another part, a bigger part, is feeling like it will be the same as any other retreat. Right before we leave, there is an excitement in the air, and it continues on for most of the weekend, but then by the end of Sunday, I don't remember much of what was said, and going about my daily routine seems like the thing to do. Right now, I feel as though I only have my church friends left. Everyone from high school, I haven't talked to on msn since the end of last year. Some of them, I haven't even seen face to face since we got together at the end of the summer. I know that in the long run, this may be the best thing for me. Right now, I don't know what to think. I want this weekend to help me become closer to God, and yet not make me feel as though, returning to reality is such a bad thing.
Hopefully things get better. I don't know why, but I feel as though they will.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Week 2

Doing my second week of college classes.
It's fun so far.
Fun quotation from Chef.
Chef:You know why it's called a G-string?
Because, 'Geez, put some more clothes on'!
I wish I could remember everything he says.
I could write a book, and make millions.